hideandgofuckyourself:

Need

same. 

hideandgofuckyourself:

Need

same. 

perpetualtoska:

There are few things that make me feel as connected to a person as when I recommend a movie that holds a special place in my heart for whatever reason and they love it.

all the time. i used to think that these feelings are trivial, unimportant, and shallow. but they’re so not these things. they are important feels because we show the real self when it comes to movies or music. we’re honest. 

Travel changes you, emigration more so, but you will still be you. and you will miss what you love and therefore know why you love it. That is the greatest gift emigration gives you. — neilwykes

princeoberynmartell:

I know some people don’t really like this ambiguous ending, but I think it’s great. This script has fantastic screen direction from Steve McQueen and Abi Morgan executed perfectly from Michael Fassbender. I love how nothing is spoken, but we can see all the emotions described just from Fassbender’s facial expressions. The final ending is changed quite a bit, but the same idea is still there. There has been some debate as to whether he succumbs to his urges or not, but to me that’s not what’s important in this scene. I think the message that this scene gives is that because he is an addict he has to go through a struggle with himself and his urges and his emotions every time he finds himself in a similar situation. This ending shows that for his character, it’s never really over (not at least until he gets some major help) and we can tell by that last look he gives that he is disgusted and ashamed by that, but at the same time, he still can’t look away. 

(via perpetualtoska)

cloudypianoblues:

“There is an ecstasy that marks the summit of life, and beyond which life cannot rise. And such is the paradox of living, this ecstasy comes when one is most alive, and it comes as a complete forgetfulness that one is alive.”


-Jack London, The Call of the Wild

this is so goddamn true. 

thoughts on the uk adventure


it’s so annoying how fucking indecisive i am sometimes. i mean it’s fine when it comes to stuff like a tumblr theme, or where to go have lunch, or which bar to go to after work. but it just sucks huge balls when it comes to being as indecisive as i am regarding important, life changing stuff. for example the going to london thing. it fucking terrifies me, not because it’s about change, my adapatbility degree is pretty high, i do adapt easily. it’s just about the comfort that i leave behind i suppose, and the people. i am kinda scared at the thought of losing people with my going away. i always hear stories like that; someone goes away for a while and leaves friends and close people behind and when they return the people that they have left behind have moved on, weren’t friends anymore, weren’t close anymore,

i think that is a scary thought. some would say i have some growing up to do regarding my friends and the people i usually hang out with, but they are my people, i love them, and i have known them since i was a kid basically. also, the orientation skills that i utterly lack - man, that is really some scary shit right there. i once got lost in an airport in italy and it was fucking terrifying for me. i have had some big issues regarding orientation since that time in the airport. and just thinking about how huge london is, it just makes my skin crawl, to be honest.

i never did like the big, metropolitan places. i mean i do, to visist, not to live there. and also the food, i truly am a foody, and i enjoy my food immensely. we have such quality produce and ingredients here. i remember when i used to live in germany i used to hate the quality of the produce and i used to miss the taste of the food at home so much. i know, i know, people tend to romanticize their hometown and everything about it when they are away, but it wasn’t just that. thinking about the distance between point a and point b, i would fucking despise having to spend hours commuting every day. it’s all this small stuff that makes me anxious and annoys the fuck out of me. i still have a few months here, so i will definitely make the most of it, but i do have to decide soon.

and i have no idea, other than i wanna go and see things and experience stuff, but i never want to be away from home forever.

yellow nails wednesday.

yellow nails wednesday.